~Flashback~
I haven’t been keeping this up at all but I’ve decided to try to update this more often. I’m not making promises of how often it will be updated, because, as many of you know, life as a college student is busy and hectic. So, here’s a quick flashback of the last semester and a half of my life.
Let me just start out by saying, that God is good and I’m constantly learning more and more about what He has in store for me, a few pieces at a time. The last semester has been one of big decisions that will affect my future and what I’m doing with my life. For those of you who don’t know, I don’t like living with much uncertainty. I don’t think any of us do. I’m uncomfortable not having at least a vague idea of what I’m doing, even for the next week. One, because I feel exposed and insecure, and two, because I’m afraid I’ll forget something. I LOVE doing spontaneous things but at the same time I like knowing what’s going on. I need to know what I’m doing so I know when I can be spontaneous, if that makes any sense.
All this to say, I decided mid-semester last fall to change my major from pre-nursing to…who knew what. At the time the only thing I knew clearly was that I did not need to be in pre-nursing. Much as I loved the idea of nursing, God did not have that in his plan for me (at least not for now). This is where the not-liking-uncertainty comes in. Although I knew that I didn’t need to be in pre-nursing, I had no idea what I was supposed to go into. Part of me was ok with taking my time and not rushing into another major, but another part of me did not like living with uncertainty of what I should be doing with my life. One other thing I was and am pretty certain of is that I want to go into ministry/missions. Here in the US or overseas is yet to be determined, I’m open to wherever God leads me after graduation. I knew I loved working with people (is it really that obvious?), I was just uncertain of how I wanted to do that. What were my gifts, strengths, passions, and joys of working with people?
I juggled several ideas including Biblical Studies (with emphasis in missions), Community Development, Interdisciplinary Studies (with youth ministry, biblical studies, and sociology), and Sociology. I prayed, talked to my parents, talked to the Career Center here, asked the opinions of my good friends and prayed some more. With so much on my mind, it was hard to concentrate and focus sometimes. BUT God is good. If you don’t know already, you’re probably wanting me to just hurry up and spill the beans. Well, after much prayer and debating, I’ve come to the decision of changing my major to Sociology, possibly with an emphasis on Interpersonal Counseling. As of now, it’s not completely official as I still need to talk to my advisor and get it officialy changed.
I learned a lot through this process. I learned more about myself, my strengths and weakness. I learned to trust in God through everything, whether or not I know what I’m doing, because HE knows the plan for my life. Like it says in Jeremiah, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.” I realized more how much I am blessed to have supporting and prayerful parents. They helped me work through things and were supportive, no matter what I would’ve picked, as long as I’m trusting that it’s what God is calling me to do. There is still uncertainty in my life, yet I know that God is in control and that I don’t have to worry. I have to constantly remind myself of this though. It’s a continual learning process. Praise God for his patience and everlasting mercy!!
Well, so this isn’t super long and you don’t fall asleep, I’m gonna wrap it up. I just wanted to share part of what’s been going on in my life in the past several months. If you have questions, let me know. I seriously am going to try to keep this up, not just with my life but whatever I’m thinking at the time. Feel free to check as often as you’d like or as little as you like.
“Praise God from whom all blessings flow, Praise Him all creatures here below, Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts, Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost.”
